Having schizophrenia means that the things you find to do are
therapy for you whereas they are hobbies, jobs and pastimes for
everyone else. People with mental disorders are sometimes referred
to as survivors. I suppose that this is, at least in part, because
so many of the non-survivors have committed suicide. I guess I'm a
survivor although I have never attempted suicide. I did, however,
ride a motorcycle for a while.
Having a
mental illness means
that it is a challenge at times to give the ongoing impression of
being sane or ok. At other times it is a challenge to convince
people that you have a genuine illness. Much of what you do is to
maintain the sanity that you do have and to try to be functional
to an extent. The idea of improving your condition seems to not be
an option from a medical point of view. You can only realistically
expect to get worse. Your life expectancy is greatly reduced
primarily because people with mental illnesses are more prone to
commit suicide.
People are afraid of schizophrenics. They think they are
dangerous. The fact is that schizophrenics are no more prone to
violence than normal people. They resort to violence generally
when they are threatened or attacked just like others do. The
greatest threat that a schizophrenic poses is to commit suicide or
to hurt himself. This generally happens when the circumstances
seem hopelessly unjust. A condition often aggravated needlessly by
evil doers.
I don't know that there is a reason why people develop
schizophrenia. I tend to think that it is in the genes and that it
cannot be prevented except through divine intervention. If it were
a matter of a chemical imbalance, as is generally medically
accepted and professed today, we might find a cure, and that is
what the experts would have you believe is happening, it's good
for business. I think it is rather a physical flaw that medicine
cannot alter. The medication that is prescribed only reduces the
symptoms, like plugging the hole in the bottom of a boat with a
piece of chewing gum that needs to be added to regularly. I highly
suspect that like the chewing gum medicine collects in your system
and in your brain. Perhaps the boat will complete its journey
before it becomes an issue. Medicine does not cure the condition,
as the chewing gum doesn't mend the boat. Medicine is a rather
crude science and is still in its infancy as far as I'm concerned.
The realm of medicine is filled with lofty egos, which think they
have the best solution for schizophrenics, just because they have
found something that seems to help. They often don't convince them
though.
One of the greatest struggles in deciding whether or not to go
along with the psychiatrist's decision to put me on medication
was, is this ok with God? Does the field of medicine have enough
wisdom to recommend something that is actually good for me? Or is
this branch of medicine on the same fatal path as antibiotics are?
The use of antibiotics has promoted the growth of resistant
strands of bacteria. God has dietary laws that are a matter of
life and death for believers and adherents to Christianity. Do
drugs meet the criteria of clean foods? If they do not then I
should not consume them. Is the medical industry fit to make that
decision for me? They certainly believe they are, without a doubt.
My hesitation was looked at as a symptom of my illness, I was
perceived to be in denial, one of their pet assumptions. Although
the changes might not be as dramatic, I thought that developing a
better relationship with God would be more beneficial in the long
run than taking drugs, a quick fix. Absolutely no discussion of
the matter was encouraged, an insult to my intelligence and to my
religious beliefs and good reason to doubt the medical profession
all the more.
I went through therapy. Overall I would say it was beneficial
but not nearly as much as it could have been. The clinic was run
like a business. I was looked at as a file, a case or a client
rather than a human being with unique needs. The objective was to
get me to fit into a predefined mold. The first thing they taught
us was to avoid discussions of a personal nature. On the other
hand they asked us all kinds of personal questions, a blatant
double standard. They certainly did not practice what they
preached in this regard. The prevailing attitude was that they
knew best what was good for me. Of course they were following the
pattern set out for them in their job training and education. I
surfed the net a bit and found that the word compassion is not
used in conjunction with psychotherapy in the English language,
only in other languages. Empathy is found to be a new tool used by
a few, but is far from being in widespread use. To those who do
use it, it is found to be very effective and beneficial. It is a
real shame that the second greatest commandment, 'love your
neighbor as yourself,' is not deeply observed by the psychiatric
and medical industry.
For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good
work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.
Philippians 1:6 NASB. This is an example of the love of God for
His creation. No matter what your situation is, if God has chosen
you, He is in the process of perfecting you. This is not a
physical perfecting, for we know that we get old and decrepit, but
a spiritual perfecting. The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy,
peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness,
self-control; against such things there is no law. Galatians
5:22-23 NASB. The development of these characteristics is
spiritual growth. This development can start with any human being
and continue until death do you part or Christ's return. In my way
of thinking, if this development is encouraged then even the
mentally ill will get better. This is what the therapists should
be concerned with instead of having us fit in to some worldly
social idealism.
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and
of love, and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7. This verse comes to
mind. It occurs to me that a sound mind is not a flawless mind
just as a healthy body is not a flawless body. There is no such
thing as a flawless body or a flawless mind. Just look at Lance
Armstrong for example, he is a world class athlete and has cancer.
A sound mind is one that can reason and chose to obey God's
commandments.
Since writing this article I have come across an explanation of
schizophrenia at this website www.medicinenet.com . I would
recommend it to anyone intersted in learning
about schizophrenia.
It is a comprehensive website by the author's of Webster's New
World Medical Dictionary. I would have benefited from having this
insight when I was being diagnosed or when I was going through
therapy. I would have written a different article. It may not have
been available at the time. Knowledge is increasing.
For a well-informed broader view of psychiatry see the
following article by Maureen B. Roberts http://www.jungcircle.com/exile.html
, Soul In Exile. It is an excerpt from her book Divine Madness:
Schizophrenia, Cultural Healing & Psychiatry's Loss of Soul, c.
2001 Darknight Publications by Maureen B. Roberts. Though she
points out a real problem quite well she does not present a
convincing solution. Personally I believe that all healing comes
from God through His Son Jesus. Without this admission there is no
lasting healing.
